things have changed so much.
i cannot say if the changes are for better or not. i still remember when i was a little girl, all i wanted was to smile and have fun. now i understand what my grandma meant by 'enjoy your life, forget about your problems, as long as they are small enough to be forgotten'. now they've grown up. im at the point, where i dont know what to do. and, to be honest, i dont see any possible way to solve my problems. there's just nothing i could do to make things right. i've tried twice, and i've messed up someones lifes. i dont want to do it again. i dont want anyone to be upset because of me.

God, i loved once. dont let me fall in love again, there are 1300 miles between us. dont let me be hurt again by any guy.